What Was I Thinking?

I WASN”T THINKING.  Her secret should have been safe with me.  How could I blog about the very thing that shamed her? Unforgivable.  And the flip title, “Her Secret is Safe with Me.”  Why didn’t I stop and read it twice?  Maybe I would have recognized the irony my subconscious mind was suggesting with that title.  I’ve been blogging as if I’ve got privacy settings on.  Why wouldn’t I have censored what I wrote, like any normal guy?  I just didn’t think.  I was hurting, feeling lost, and I wanted my few followers to know why.  That’s all I was thinking.  In other words, I WASN’T THINKING about anyone but myself.    Do I admit what I’ve done when I see her?   I can’t imagine that she’ll ever trust me now.

 

 

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One Comment on “What Was I Thinking?

  1. Wow. I hadn’t even thought about that aspect of this blogging thing I have begun. He left, I needed to release my pain so I took to journaling… online. And so far a lot of what I write are my thoughts and feelings on the subject what was once “us.” It’s helping me. And I write it as though I am writing it for him, even though I know I am writing for me. But if he were to read it, would it just cause both of us more pain? And am I willing to stop what seems to be helping me to heal to avoid hurting him more? Our situations are different, but I am appreciating that there are still good men out in the world who do their best to love and be loved in return. Best of luck to you!

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